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I haven’t blogged since April!

To be honest my blogging class left a bitter taste in my mouth and I was "protesting" I guess.

I decided today that I want to get back into it. I don’t have many followers and reader. The only people who I had were from my blogging class and from the five minutes I just glanced around my site most of them have quit too. I want to blog for me, a place to write and to talk about what is going on.

So let’s play catch up.

1. This summer I had the chance to go to Lu-Jo again and I’m proud of myself for going (Kaci- please read this next year when you are having second thoughts)

I feel horrible because growing up I always thought of Lu-Jo as my home away from home and the best place on earth.

I made some poor decisions and ruined it for myself and probably a few others as well.

I'm not proud of the way I acted and the person I was. (If any one I offended reads this, I truly do apologize for my actions!)

I hope that I can reestablish the relationships I had and the love I found at this amazing place! I love Lu-Jo and I don’t want to let it go.

2. I started my senior year at UCO and that’s crazy to me. I’m almost done with the fall semester which means I will be graduating in May. I have no idea how that happened. I applied for graduation in October and it still doesn’t seem real to me.

3. I'm still in love with my crazy boyfriend. Sometimes I want to ring his neck and sometime I wonder what I’m doing but once I calm down I realize how amazing he is (even when he tests my patience). :)

Trevor has became the crazy snake guy and has FOUR now!! LeRoy, Lincoln, Larry and Lars. They are his pets! I have recently adopted two sweet Sugar Gliders, Gin and Tonic.

4. Yesterday a friend of mine died in a car crash, Amber Lee Brown. We weren’t super closer but she used to be one of my managers at Applebees and she was a VERY sweet girl! She was driving too fast and lost control. Her and her passenger lost their lives.

If you read this please send up a prayer for her family. Amber was a single mother and she left behind her very young daughter, Cheyenne. It really makes you think about how quickly your whole life can change.

Last night after I heard the news I was watching The Voice with Trevor and Tate, my favorite on the show, sang Garth Brooks song If Tomorrow Never Comes and all I could think about was sweet Cheyenne loosing her mommy.

 If Tomorrow Never Comes

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

 

RIP Amber.

You went way too soon but you will never be forgotten.

 

-KaciDawn